Shoplifting from American Apparel (15 Sep 2009) promotional post part one

I like SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL today, I was working on it and then thinking about it and I felt good toward it continuously for maybe 8 hours. It will look like this, I am excited. I just thought "I don't care about any of my other books anymore" and then "I don't care about anything anymore." That SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL is going to look like the book I linked has motivated me more to make the book feel more beautiful to me in terms of style and content. I believe the book will make me calmer when I read it in the future. The characters I focus on in SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL have high levels of acceptance, I think. I hope American Apparel sells SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL. I think it would be funny to see SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL in Urban Outfitters. I feel that I would rather be published in Melville House's Contemporary Novella Series than receive a $100,000 advance from some other place. I think advances are deceptive. They are just advances on royalties. I think I am going to hold the book and feel beautiful, like I won't care about anything anymore, and will experience nearly uncontrollable urges to go lay in my room and listen to music. Feelings of depression caused by limited productivity will not be near me. They will like go away from me, if they were ghosts you would see them flying really far from me. I feel good about Melville House and helvetica. Some one-line descriptions of SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL are "2x shoplifting arrest, 5x vague relationship" and "a shoplifting book about vague relationships." I think this is very marketable. People want to read about relationships, I think. People want to read about jail and crime, I think. Also due to the non-rhetorical nature of the book people will not hate the book as much as if I had inserted similes and things. Some people dislike "irony" or "sarcasm" or "quirkiness," and those things are not as detectable in SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL as in most books due to the concrete nature of the sentences, therefore even people with very different senses of humor than me can like the book, I think. I want to read about relationships. I read DEAR DIARY by Lesley Arfin and I liked the relationship parts most, I felt emotional, I liked when she interviewed people she used to be in relationships with. I like when people write about themselves. When I read Dear Diary I wanted to read a lot more things like it to see what other people in NYC were doing from 2000-2005. I want to read about what people are doing. I like NIGHT OWL by Brandon Scott Gorrell. Maybe it can be said that I want to know what people are doing more than I want to know what people are thinking. I don't know, maybe not. Almost every book I like to read is about relationships I think. CLUMSY by Jeffrey Brown and other books by him are focused completely on one relationship. THE END OF THE STORY by Lydia Davis is focused completely on one relationship. Both my next two books feature relationships. Both my next two books also feature reckless shoplifting. I think I view YOU ARE A LITTLE BIT HAPPIER THAN I AM as an anomaly in my career arc, like it isn't connected to anything else really, in terms of prose style and tone or something. I think I view BED that way also. BED is like isolated, certain things in my life caused it to happen, like I was reading Lorrie Moore and felt patient and severely depressed and was not socializing but somehow had high self-esteem, allowing me to insert rhetorical things and similes. I think I want to view all my books that way, as separate from the other things or something. I feel like I've been 3-5 different people in my life, like I have experienced 3-5 different worldviews and levels of self-esteem and levels of socializing which determine what a certain book I write is like. I feel I have experienced most of those within the last 5-7 years and that I have experienced some twice with different things in between. Ideally I do not look back on different "people" I have "been" in the past and feel like they are worse or better but different. I have liked different kinds of writings and music and I ideally do not want to view myself as "evolving" within an hierarchy but just changing all the time, with it being very possible that in the future I change into something I have been before or change into someone who listens to Kid Rock and eats at Popeyes every day and like beats a pet dog for real pleasure (specifics chosen for disparity to my current situation). If there is a hierarchy I feel okay, ideally, being in right now it is to become better at viewing change rather than like development or betterment. But I also feel right now that any "ideal" I have is just something I made up to allow me the possibility of knowing what to do, it is an assumption, ideals are assumptions to me at this point in my life. I feel that SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL and RICHARD YATES are like "together," they together are an anomaly in my career arc, but are of different worldviews and levels of self-esteem and socializing. The prose style is the same or very similar. I feel prose style, worldview, and levels of self-esteem and socializing are the main variations that determine the tone and focus of the books I write. When I begin a book I think I focus on my current feelings and experience of life and write it from that variation, but sometimes I change while writing the book, then I seem to be experiencing two variations at once, one in the writing and one in my life. For example the tone and focus of RICHARD YATES was incongruous to the tone and focus of my life while writing RICHARD YATES for most of the time writing of it, I am not sure the effect of that on my life or on the book. Sometimes when I am working on something I want to think "I want to write what I want to read if I was 20 and in a library and alone and looking for something to read to make myself feel better and not want to kill myself but feel high levels of acceptance and selflessness (in terms of not caring about one's own happiness and not caring about 'fairness') or to feel high levels of being able to believe the arbitrary nature of everything, therefore eliminating hierarchies that cause thoughts of 'fairness' and like one 'deserves more.'" Sometimes I have thought that "I want to write what have been the most emotional moments in my life." This is part one of my SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL promotional posts. I think it will be funny if someone comes to this blog 100 days from now and sees 30 continuous posts as long as this one about SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL. I think some people would feel appalled by that. I just thought about what I typed about relationship books and it isn't true. I like NORM MACDONALD by Ellen Kennedy and it doesn't have relationships. I like reading about people doing things alone with seemingly no possibility of a relationship. Much of Joy Williams also is not focused on relationships, I think. There is less violence in my next books. YOU ARE A LITTLE BIT HAPPIER THAN I AM had violent images. EEEEE EEE EEEE had violent images. SHOPLIFTING FROM AMERICAN APPAREL has medium-high levels of profanity, I think.